Well at first yesterday I found my tablet pen which was missing for over a month or two... Yay. Then when i started using it and had to end up redoing a sketch 5 times and still fail... it just makes me either want to snap the tablet in half or try and get my $100 refund for it.

I was seriously on a rage earlier about it too, but im all calm now. :S

God, I can't believe my mouse skills are better than my hands at freedrawing.

Do NOT say "practice makes perfect", that only makes me want to hurt myself. Not even the word "practice"!

Seriously, I fucking hate that phrase. Do not say it...

Well, as if my pissant attitude this morning was bad enough... This may REALLY hurt the people I'm commissioning now, but I got into an accident with a baby dear on my way home from college to my folk's house 2 hours away.

My dad reckons it may cost quite the pocketload to get it repaired. The bumper's been dislodged and it's got a nice crack in it...

So I'm putting the $100 commission on hold until we find out how much it might cost to repair it.

Today is not my day...

Fuck it. Everything I seem to do is just getting shot down. Apparently I can't fucking seem to please people. Why?

'Cause their too scared to say it to my face what they DO and DON'T like (except ). When people don't respond when I ask for critique, it makes me think "It's so disturbing, but I dont want to hurt his feelings..." BULLSHIT! Why are you watching me then!? If you dont like my works, then dont bother.

EDIT: No, I'm not going to take down the $100 commission, it's one of those damn super-emo shit that gets to my head.

YOU STILL HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO PATRONIZE ME!

Most recent events in nice short phrases:

Out of high school, in college in ITT Tech in Omaha Nebraska. Fucking loving it.

Moved in with my brother and his best friend, 15 miles away from my school.

Current trades to complete:
- Still in works
- Restarting...
- Linearting her pic [link] and getting a couple of return favors from her

Current peoples on the $100 commission:
- She's got mini-sketches done, one of my main protagonist... waiting on her to finish out with her school.
- Her sudden leave to Germany has put her end of the commission on halt, but when the 25th comes around this will be resumed. Has a nice sketch of Saiko done already.
- Has been paid $50 for completing the sketches required of her to continue working.
- Has a few sketches done, but she upped and disappeared recently, don't know where she went. I will be noting her eventually to see what's happening.

And there's a few others who I cannot remember at this time... to fucking early in the morning.

Hoping to enlist:
- Great feminine artist for muscles!
- Same reason above!

A few people I'm considering as well:
- Damn good gryphon artwork, she knows the style I persue.
- I did a test commission on her and man, she blows my mind as well XP.

Oh and yeah, I'm gonna need more artists on the $100 commishes... The picture is ending up bigger and bigger than I expected, which I'm hoping I don't do ROADKILL for my money... or else... >.<'

As a reminder to the people I am commissioning, I allow you to throw in your character into the picture for FREE to show your hard work on everything you've done for me.

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I got a wii, and Super Smash Bros Brawl. Don't ask me for my friend/brawl codes, the wifi doesnt fucking work... yet...

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Artwork style updates:

Well, as you all may have noticed, I've stopped the shitty sketches and have become more adapt at making better lineart. Pen tool with photoshop is fucking epix guys... Go learn how, it's pretty easy. That's why all my lines and shit come out so nice. I don't even do a damn sketch, I just pen tool like a steroid abuser!

My main focus is on getting those trades done right now, so you all don't get forgotten and don't feel like I've cheated you out. If I eventually forget about it, I'll make it up as a commission and pay that person so you have compensation... God I gotta stop requesting trades... Big fat 4-letter word called lazy, I swear to hell.

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The Madness Combat Superstition is currently on hold as I'm going through college which is kinda beating me up, but eh, I'll live.

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Pride's Fall is... slowly... metabolising... slowly... I mean at a slug's pace. Don't bitch at me, I've been busy working my ass off at 2 different WoW servers, wow-legends [link] and Exile WoW [link] Both are good servers and if your looking for an escape route from the dreaded $15 a month, $45 per half a year, and $80 per year, then these would be a good place to go.

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I don't think I have anything else at this time, but if people think i need to pimp out my journal, fuck no. Subs are a waste of money and time. Who gives a shit if it makes you look like a pro, YOU DONT NEED TO LOOK LIKE A PRO IF YOU DO GOOD ARTWORK!!!

Anyway, 'nuff said for now... I'll keep ya posted more often... God this place is ancient.

K well I got paid off, so it's all good and stuff.

I realize now that my skills in animating Madness Combat-themed things is better than my actual drawings... sheesh. I can feel Krinkels pain...

I'm also working with him to create Madness Combat 9 as well, it's turning out pretty cool. I know of quite a few things which are going to happen. I can only say a few things right now:

Hank, the Clown, the Savior and the Auditor are ALL returning.

That's all I'm going to say.